small and beautiful things in life are for you to appreciate...

hmmz....taking worship this sunday....and the whole program is just worship!!!!o man....it just means singing and singing for 2 hours straight....but thanks to l :) he helped me along the way and guided me to choose songs liao :) jk will b playing the keyboard and l, the guit :) hahas...sighs...i have a messy mind right now... "quarreled" with jk ytd...over his mom...and his studies...shall not spill out the details here...boy arh...when you feel like talking to me again, know that my ears will be all yours k...truly want to be your friend... was walking home today when i noticed an interesting sight in the sky...there was a beautiful pattern formed in the sky due to the sun and clouds and water droplets in the sky :) scientific explanation provided by my mom...was so excited that i hurriedly walked home and showed my mom the pattern :) was quite disappointed at her reaction...she was like "oh..."...that's all!!!sad...it lead me to think about God talking about having a childlike faith, when you learn to appreciate everything around you, when you just feel so amazed about all the lovely patterns around you...so cool!!!i want to continue appreciating all these things till my last breath :) thank you Lord for making all these beautiful things in life :) on saturday, we had a studying session...like me, jk n a...hahas...finished permutations and combinations and probability!!!so pleased with myself for catching up with mr c...physics test this friday...and there's going to be a compre test in the afternoon!!!arghs...why are teachers evil beings that do not appreciate the hard work we put in, the effort we can only afford given our level of ability???if only...sighs...getting chinese 'ao' results this wed...will be late for training :( and the compre test is 2.30 to 4!!!will be having land training this friday...thanks to the stupid test...going to buy new running shoes on saturday!!!! :) :) yay yay!!!new running shoes means i can alternate between the new one and my current new balance ones and run everyday and not be afraid of them getting flattened!!!hahas....yeah.... wanted to post something reflective...but i just forgot what i wanted to post about...--> shall post it when i remember...

psalms 23

the Lord is my shepherd, i shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, He restores my soul. He guides me in paths in righteousness for His name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

next post: one week later

haven't been blogging for nearly a week!!!the past week has been so draining that all i ever do at home is bathe, eat dinner and sleep!!!seriously...even when i try to watch the 9pm show [lu zheng xin ren wang], i fall asleep on the sofa...but something amazing happened!!!i found a new way of studying...that is, to sleep before 11 so i can wake up at 4am!!!hahas...the day i fell asleep on the sofa was tuesday i think...the next day, without even setting the alarm clock, i woke up at 3.51am!!!and i was so super awake lor...been eating quite little out of home these few days...but once i reach home its like gorge time!!!reach home, eat, dinner, eat, eat, eat, eat, eat, sleep...super pig lor...hahas...monday was funny...met a after school to help her do pullups...but both sets of pullup bars were in use so she refused to do her pullups for the day in front of either the rockclimbers or the d-boaters...so we did rowing outside the ssc room in full school uniform!!!so freaking hot...after that, when we were both sweating like pigs, we went to sit at the grandstand to cui feng...blow wind???sounds wrong...hahas...saw j unexpectedly...disrupted his conversation with another alumni...sighs...after pulling, we went home...took 9 and went walking at eastpoint...saw kt after i crossed the road...looking further up, i saw sh and another rjc girl...hahas...after walking around at eastpoint, i saw xy at the traffic light...so qiao can!!!like see so many of the people i knew...i just recognised them from afar...hahas... physics s paper tutorial yesterday was sad...like me plus 5 peeps from s27 plus 2/3 from s01 and another 2/3 from s02...2/3 because i don't know which group's from s01 and which from s03...basically i went through two hours without talking to anyone!!!so gross...don't know how to describe the feeling...and mr s kept stressing that i don't know anyone else in class la...but mr s's so cute!!!i realised that he teaches like mr c...except for the alternate method alternate method thingy...and he prepares for lessons!!!though he doesn't look at whatever he prepared during the lesson...kind of redos every question...and we went through 3 questions from 4 25 to 6 17...so slow can...hahas... been going to school early everyday to row... we are getting new computers in b207!!!that's our computer lab...yes man!!!because all the sets were failing {in mr c's original words}...hahas...so on wednesday, we were given the order to dismantle the whole set and remove the cpu and the monitor!!!hahas...so fun...like mass destruction...we won't be using the computers for the next week i guess...since mr c says that they'll take about 10 days to set up and test everything...was sleeping during lesson yesterday...it was so cold yesterday!!! maths...got test today...so woke up at 4 to finish the complex numbers chapter...got 4 chapters in the test, complex numbers, vectors, forces and friction and numerical methods...hahas...will be leaving out vectors...too much for my brain to handle given that i've been lagging in maths tutorials...hahas...that sounds like probability!!!which i haven't started but which mr c has finished... listened to an engineering talk last friday...then listened to a arts and social sciences talk on wednesday...means i've lost out in 2 water practices...anyways, i feel like taking a major in electrical engineering and a minor in psychology...hahas...can i??see how ba... hao ba hao ba...shall go prepare for my new day ready...going to nap for 10min...nights!!!

dunno...

sorry for the previous post...just felt like penning down stuff in poem form...yesterday was busy...as will be today... ytd...left school at 10.50 after maths lect go home...saw s on her way home from the doc's...hahas...went home, packed my stuff, washed clothes...slacked a bit and went back to school to do pullups :) hahas...sat through prof ku?? and asst prof eicher low's engineering talks...im going for electrical engineering man...ended late...made my own way down to bedok reservoir...did starts up and down the breadth of the reservoir thanks to the lightning...pretty good i feel for ytd :) thought i was following d's frequency but it appears that i was actually faster than her!!!slow down girl...anyway, mr ac also complained that both our frequencies were way too fast for 2m12cm paddles...hahas...shall pull longer today...i want to run!!!!!!!!but i'll be disallowed...after training rushed home, bathed then went off to meet jk for worship prac...ate a mars bar :) yummy!!!then went to play pool...waited quite a while for a table...lost 3 games, won 1... on my way home, a lot of thoughts came to mind and at quite a few junctions, i just felt like crying...but He's great :) saw a couple sitting together...both of them were sleeping...girl's head on guy's shoulder, guy's head on girl's head...so sweet can...but the wonderful image became distorted in my mind...you wouldn't want to know what came to mind...sighs... today's schedule: 8.30am--report at bedok reservoir to help take care of "runner"'s bags...since im forbidden... 2pm--first lesson of qihang for me 4.30pm--sunday's biblestudy prep loads of rushing here and there again...sianz... jk's been talking about taking a break, like totally not caring about anything...i guess it's something we all yearn for!!!i want it too...a break from being the "programmer", a break from leading worships, a break from playing for worships, a break from worrying about who's leading worship...i guess as a christian, our breaks come in the form of tablets :) daily tablets that we should take but we mostly conveniently forget to take...our daily refreshments from Him alone... remember to have your "medicine" everyday k...byes...

perfection and imperfection

did you realise that all good things in this world come in twos?? starting from the beginning, God made humans with two eyes to see and admire His wonderful creations, two ears to listen and enjoy the joyous sounds, two hands to follow His will and carry our cross, two legs to follow His footsteps, two nostrils to take deep breaths of the perfect atmosphere. see, everything in this world was supposed to be about God. but He created humans and they started to destroy the perfection in everything possible. urbanisation--destroying the wonderful creations, machinery--add hideous noises to our gallery, war--do evil things with our hands, aeroplane--bring us to where He is not, pollution--destroying the perfect atmosphere. love, was meant to be perfect. that is, if you follow His Ways. this, is just another example of how humans have managed to succesfully destroy the perfection in God's will.

happy belated vday everyone!!!!!

today two days late liao...so long nvr blog can...everyday like reach home already no energy...hahas...actually no la...been reaching home quite early (like 5++) then watch the winter olympics highlights repeat...hahas...so sad that i never ever managed to wake up at 2 to watch the direct telecast...sad that i stay in singapore whose time is so different from torino, italy...just realised the fun of watching winter olympics...maybe 4 years later this time, you'll find me in italy watching the olympics live!!!!hahas...*wonders if v is watching the olympics live*...envy envy...after watching olympics, i watched comedy party on mondays and packed my stuff/ate dinner on other days...basically slack lar... had a good day on tue...stupid hy ps-ed us after asking us to go out...but anyways we still went out and had fun...hahas...j bought flowers for the three girls, namely me, s and d :) so sweet can!!!!!hahas... had training ytd...then while running to the toilet, my left foot stepped into a pothole and i tripped...resulting in a sprain in the left ankle and a scraped right knee...so malu lar...plus left ankle is sprain third time already lor...sighs...now i've got a left ankle forever prone to sprains...been injuring myself quite a lot recently...sighs... today, went to biopolis for astar research attachment closing ceremony...so lame can....the philip yeo guy, who's currently the astar chairman's opening address was like rubbish can...he keep talking about his achievements in all the agencies he has worked for and for every agency, he will always emphasise how they decline after he leaves and how it is none of his business...freaking cocky...there was good catered food...we wanted to pon the poster presentations at first but couldn't...and this funny never-see-before chemistry teacher actually represented our school to get our certificates...we were all wondering if he's just someone sent up so our certificates get collected but it turns out that he IS our school teacher indeed... hahas...was late for the third time today...but she was on mc again!!!probably haven't recovered ba...sighs...stupid injured ankle...o ya...i got in for physics s paper!!!only 9 people got selected...sianz...

road run...chiong arh!!!

back man...seriously in no mood to catch up for maths...slept through the two periods today...xy told mr c that im sick...o ya...he treated us to marshmallow dipped in chocolate just now...delicious :) had no appetite today...only finished my breakfast plus the marshmallows and a cup of apple and a cup of red apple juice...that's all i had in sch!!!o ya...after sch stayed to accompany hy because she waiting to go straight for tuition...was a super rainy day today...a super sleepy day... wk said i look like a guy from the back...because my shoulders are broad...don't know if i should be sad about it or not...anyways, i can do a normal pullup and one with my palms facing me....have yet to break the "one" stage :) hahas.... road run yesterday...got 26th :) hahas...a satisfying result after much running...got stitch 5 minutes after i started running and it lasted all the way till the end lar...so jialat...stopped twice...class got second :) yay!!so got a trophy and a medal yesterday...after that went home and went kbox-ing...celebrated yh's birthday...gave him a surprise :) hahas...the guys singed more than usual while the girls sang so much less...c was being dumb and proclaiming that he sang the most songs lor...then p rapped a lot of jay chou's songs...so boring...after that had dinner with yh...he so nice can...treated me to soya bean :) hahas...

with all i am

si mei...hahas...thanks for reminding me that He is with me :) finished the whole "ideal gases" tutorial today!!!hahas...while "watching" the news...was actually planning to watch the english news today...because we are all supposed to hand in 5 current affairs mcq questions to qm/p by saturday...however, the english news timing clashes with all the shows that i like so too bad!!!hahas...then i missed the chinese news as well since i was busy doing the tutorial...but finishing the ideal gases tutorial means that i've caught up with my teacher since i was listening during the thermodynamics tutorial just now :) which means i am supposed to start catching up on my maths...which is lagging far far far far behind...sincerely have no wish to start on the catching up...just suddenly realised that i love physics more than maths...or is it because of my teacher???no ideas...anyways, i've officially dropped chinese and today, i enjoyed my first period of chinese-less :) hahas...shall get to enjoy more from now on...hmmz... saturday, i went for training without doing any exercise...was there, supposed to finish up superposition tutorial but i was just staring at the same page of a's times for the whole training...the guys ran around bedok reservoir (4.8 km) and the girls (hy n a) ran + half jogged for 3.0 km...in the end, s didn't even go for training, then d took k2 with a...there are so many dead tortoises in bedok reservoir...there are so many cruel, cold-blooded humans over at bedok reservoir who tie fishing line rounds around the poor tortoises...sighs... sunday, i wore my old pair of baggy long pants after much considerations as to how ugly the bandage will look just below the skirt and how informal burms will look...final decision: [A] baggy longs...hahas...it was so funny because i told s in the morning that i wasn't going out for lunch since i could only walk this fast...so he went for lunch with a...then they called to ask if i wanted lunch...but i was in the toilet...so didn't pick up...then i was messaging jk and he too asked if i wanted lunch...anyways, i called back s to order my lunch :) after that, upon returning to the room, n set up the equipment and proceeded to ask if i wanted lunch!!!hahas...it was really funny on my side... went to taiwan porridge for dinner with parents...ate 4.5 bowls of porridge :) :) *victorious grin* was pretty sad that mommy didn't let me eat 5 bowls instead...the last few mouthfuls were so salty man...came home, immediately took out the bandage and FREEDOM!!!hahas...knee actually still a bit guai...but when i press, it doesn't ache anymore!!! :) YAY!!! wednesday going for kbox after roadrun...decided to let myself go since i finished ideal gases today :) hahas...o ya...i'm supposed to join in the gp remedial group...know why??because someone expects me to get an a1 for gp...feel like telling her it is impossible but is it really impossible??guess not ba...from now on, i'll pay attention to the news everyday!!! :) hahas... With All I Am Into Your hands, I commit again With all I am, for You Lord You hold my world, in the palm of Your hands And I am Yours forever Jesus, I believe in You Jesus, I belong to You You're the reason that I sing, The reason that I live With all I am I walk with You, wherever You go Through tears and joy, I'll trust in You And I will live, in all of Your ways And Your promises, forever I will worship I will worship You just a song to remind myself to constantly place everything into His hands :) that He is my GREATEST Father, that i can trust in Him FOREVER!!!AMEN!!!

recovering

just thought that the title is very apt for my condition now....from my leg to my heart...hahas... somehow, i feel like my heart is recovering...was reading j's blog just now and i realised that i've long forgotten how to place my burdens at His feet and just rely on Him...i've long forgotten how to pray and ask for His presence, ask for His forgiveness and ask for His power to heal me... o ya....my leg's injured...thanks to hy...for full details, please refer to my mouth...hahas...kidding kidding...got injured on thursday helping hy do her pullups...then she swing back, i no strength then twisted my knee lor...went to see sinseh just now after training (where i didn't train)...mom was so surprised that i actually went to see sinseh myself lar...hahas...please lar...i obviously know how to go to that place man...stay there for 8 years liao eh...anyway the nice sinseh said that i injured my jin again...hahas...everytime same problem one lar...last time is left ankle now left knee...same rubbing oil, same medicine, same wrapping, same smell, same treatment...now cannot bend knee...how do i go to church tomorrow?!?!?!?!cannot wear jeans, wear skirt very ugly lar...feel like wearing berms eh...see how tomorrow :) next week so shiok can...only training on tuesday and saturday...friday training not confirmed...plus now i injured then dunno training on tuesday not...but i do hope i recover...so that i can train hard with my partner :) :) kkz...byebye... just realised i forgot to add that i actually fell asleep while waiting for the sinseh...he had to wake me up...hahas...too nice an environment to sleep in liao with all the nice smelling chinese medicines...