birthday presents

hahas...finally met j online and got my birthday present pictures!!! :) :) thank you!!still remember myself taking pictures of the presents during maths lesson...hahas... sorry...not sure how to put the caption below....in order... magnetic piglet from j piglet box n "forever friends" flower from sisters cards and letter from partner and kayakers nicholas cd frm c and wallet from teammates a comparison between my old and new wallet

inferiority complex

it is getting to me again...since primary school???since i went to red swastika's 3/9 and learnt that there are so many people better than me and that i am so bad...so lousy...since i went to taonan and came out to be the bottom of the batch...since i went to rgs and realised that the people around me can study less and get better grades than me...since...dunnos... talked to j the other day...thanks for reminding me that the most important thing in life is to get close to Him!!!! :) but sometimes, it's really hard to believe that truth...and even harder to live it out!!!grace, jia you jia you k....just pursue Him alone...it doesn't matter how others look at you, even how you look at yourself doesn't matter...as long as you know and firmly believe that HE LOVES YOU!!!

updated

sat: tpjc carnival "fun blast"...quite a weird day ba...woke up at 6...automatically...though i don't on weekdays...was checking my tpjc.net...then at 8.30, i read the message from the science booth teacher that we are supposed to be in school at 8.30...messaged s...reached school at 9.45...went to the science booth to await the goh's arrival...in the end, when he finally finally arrived, we all siam-ed and left him to talk to one group...went back to class booth after that...then walked around with wl...actually not that boring after all but the thing is, there were more tpjcians than sec 4s!!!oks...left school at 1.15 to go church...was slightly late but qihang hadn't started yet...had mini mochi!!!so nice lar...after that went to cold storage to get more mochi for the tq peeps...but didn't have the mini one so we bought the up-sized ones instead...i think we left it in the wrong compartment...making it very icy...should have left it in the fridge and not the freezer section...had fish n co for dinner...went to carrefour...they were looking for liquor...after much discussion, we ended up at giraffe...the classy place in the middle of istana park...drank a cup of bailey's irish cream...hahas...on the way home, saw this tpjc guy with his girlfriend...turned around to avoid seeing him then i realised that there's tpjc on my back...shoots...after a got off the train, i saw the campus superstar from ri...then messaged a...hahas...was quite worried for f cos she was the most red one...o ya...the girl working at giraffe is like 18!!!and it was so funny to have someone your age checking your age lar...hahas sunday:its the presbyterian church's 125th anniversary in singapore i think...so they had combined service at national indoor stadium in kallang...super a lot of people lar...anyway, didn't go for the combined service...don't like the "show"...went to st andrew's community chapel near my house instead...for the first time, i went to an anglican service!!!but it just felt so weird because everything is like set...the mc has a script...everything is set except for the worship...service ended at like 10.50...then stayed to talk to some people in there till like 11.10...after that mom asked if i wanted to buy new shoes...just happily said yes...went to east point...got 2 pairs of shoes, 2 short-sleeved t-shirts, 1 3-quarter sleeved and one long sleeved...got a new jacket too...hahas...happy day tuesday: first thing in the morning, during class pe get banged by hy and flew onto the track...got injured at 6 places...one of the injuries being scratches on my left cheek with one of them being at the corner of my eye...funny...first thing that came to mind was momentum of hy transferred to me...hahas...too much of maths...didn't go for training because there was 4x400m semifinals in the afternoon...don't like the teacher ic...insisted on us changing into running attire before letting us register...and not sympathetic at all towards the injured one...come and tell me some stupid long story some more...so proud, in the end soccer still lose to MJC...pon-ed water training on tuesday...had 2 dinners... wednesday: went for training but it was cancelled thanks to the rain...it has been pretty bad...super hot in the morning then super rainy in the afternoon...when we are all already so sian-ed by our lessons, the weather is freaking hot...when we want to celebrate the end of the lessons, it just has to rain...sighs... today: suddenly had the feeling that i wanted to drop physics s...reminds me...s commented during s paper tutorial that i seem super against mr c...don't know lar...maybe i am against him...just killing my interest in both maths...im sorry...simply cannot stand his "never prepare lesson" attitude and his "bell ring le but can we just squeeze in one more question" attitude...seems to me that both fmaths teachers aren't allowing their students to learn anything...one going too slowly, repeating himself 5 times and the other going way too fast...sickening!!!anyways, after physics, just when i went to join the soccer-watching crowd, mjc scored the winning goal...sadness...today during pe, we were just supposed to settle our sea carnival entries...wanted to take part in mixed doubles but since no one asked...fine...shall be more of sea steward :) hahas... o ya....HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!!!!!i mean you!!!hahas...

tsk

hahas...know i haven't blogged for some time...just found the time to blog like right now...before i start preparing for school... first thing must blog about birthday...went out on the 9th for marche with hy, t[hy's friend], j[classmate], m, j[kayaker], wk and wm...had a fun time just gorgin ourselves...hahas...then j n m went home...left the kayakers...went to takashimaya's mos again and played truth or dare...got one truth and one dare...actually only kena once but j say birthday must end with me so twice lor...11th was a tuesday...thought there was training so i brought my stuff to school...then hy told me there's no training so we went out again...this time round, we ate sakae buffet from 5.20 to 6...hahas...40 min, 6 people, 80 plates...plus 6 mochis and 12 slices of watermelon...hahas...super full lar...the waiters and waitresses were like just staring at us lor...because our last order was "6 plates of ...6 plates of ...6 plates of ..." basically super a lot of food because LAST order le ma...same people lar...me, hy, j, wk, wm and ja...at like 8.30, i announced myself hungry again...hahas...o ya...mr c sent me an early birthday message on the 10th...then during pe on the 11th, he did some stupid thing at the track while i was running...at the airport at night, he refused to do again but he still did it like 2 more times...hahas...cabbed home with him...some person arh...injured like all the limbs then still want to chiong pull-ups with the guys...next time become handicapped peronel arh...got a card from the fellowship people and another from the kayakers...pictures of my birthday presents are with j...shall post them when i get them :) to all the people who messaged me, thank you!! :) this week has been tiring..."I HATE COURSEWORK FOR WEBSITE!!!!!!"...i just hate it...didn't like it right from the start lor... played tennis with classmates yesterday...almost had to play with 4 guys but wl came along :) thanks for the company girl!!!then got c, j n p...o ya...played tennis for spe as well...c keep saying i was warming up...but i think my skill (or no skill) has worsened...lack of practice ba...after tennis, we went to 85 for dinner...the guys eat a lot lar...met my dear mommy there and got a lift home :) hahas...c got a lift too...to simei mrt...then he met mr c...hahas... today shall be my deathdate...got computing coursework(last 3rd session) and mathematics lecture test...i am so dead... on a more serious note, there have been quite a number of students in singapore committing suicide...i don't understand why they want to end their lives...life is so good lar...but i guess it's on the spur of the moment??maybe, one day, it'll be my turn... off to study mathematics...