actually been thinking a bit these few days....wanted to blog ytd...but didn't want to use my comp and share e table with my bro...used my mom's comp n played freecell for an hour...hahas...yups...so didn't blog...n i was waiting for dw to go online...but didn't see him...hahas...so just played my freecell happily till i got tired at 11++... oks.. friday 250507 had team meeting at bras basah macs again...ppl were late as usual...started half an hour late with 4/9 people....sposed to end at 9 but it didn't...but i left anyway....cos watch potc at 9 with p after that...cannot b late...hahas...was still late lar...watched him eat macs after tt...sent me to e wrong lift again...hahas... saturday 260607 went for FULL training!!!hahas...first time ever since tuition was changed to saturday...yes!!oks...then went to eastpoint for lunch n ac's hse after tt to help e old injured guy with his old n new tv sets...hahas....o ya...if u wan can ask me about e lizard...hahas...went home, dropped some stuff off n rushed off to bukit batok...e sermon / sharing made me think about the true purpose of fellowship...the purpose of our fellowship and the direction we should head in the new year...is fellowship there to build us up through bonding and just sharing or should we be more aggressive in our evangelistic events??these events can become lessons of faith too ba...really don't know...years ago, i remember we kept thinking we're too small to go out and evangelise...but now??we're all above 16 u know...if we continue the same events every year, what makes this year different from the rest??i really don't know...Lord, looking at the whole year and not just a fortnight, should we emerge as changed individuals?? sunday 270607 global day of prayer..prayed with this lady from victory family church...she was sitting behind me...came alone...prayed with her :) exposed to different styles of prayer...hahas :) reminded me once again about the great population who don't know God...saw pastor kh...are we truly to accept all churches??i guess they attract a different bunch of people...different people grow with different experiences and different churches will provide the different experiences?? :) but i guess there are still bits of their style i can't accept like how they try to pull people from other churches...but i just remembered that hy said, we should stop asking "what the church can do for us" and instead, ask "what we can do for the church"!!if that's the case, then...ok...it's getting confusing... getting my pay today :) :) (050607) should be if it gets approved :) hahas

day 8 at work

the first 2 weeks were peaceful...made me comfortable in my new workplace...judging frm all e "advice" J gave, i had this impression that the whole office was like some warground or something...but it was peaceful...until today...mrs boss told me that she could not surf e net...asked me to help...i went over...mr boss came over and they started to quarrel!!!o man...5 min later, after the problem was solved, i went back to my place and they were both smiling lar...scary!!!!!!!! when is a person most scary?? ~ u know some people say "ignorance is bliss"...but some people become scary when they are ignorant!!! ~ when they are power hungry!!! random thoughts: #1 people take sides...with or without them knowing... --> i wanna side with God, siding with anyone else would only bring me misery... #2

lost without God

honestly, sometimes, i really feel like leaving...just let me vent here...somehow, every time after i start trusting someone, the person leaves!!!if you can just leave, can i do the same???so many people have come and gone, can i do the same???i guess i have lost the ability to trust...i need to start in God, before i can trust anyone else, because He is the most faithful i can find...but when it comes to Him, i cannot be faithful...i think He's too faithful for me...like i'll cheat Him of His faithfulness...